Life has been so crazy busy for me. I'm not sure if it's my need for a completely clean house or just because I'm purely busy. Maybe both. I'm not really sure!
My grandma is a hoarder. Yes, she could definitely be on that show "Hoarders." I haven't been to her house in probably 10 years, but I remember going over there as a child. I think I counted 100+ bars of soap, toilet paper rolls, and towels....each! There is such a narrow path to walk everywhere in her house, and you don't really want to move anything around for fear of roaches scurrying past your feet. If you were to move a picture frame on the wall, I'm sure roaches would run amuck too! Eww! She has a room, that is supposed to be the living room but she doesn't use it. Why? Because she has two feet of clothes covering the ENTIRE floor...I'm not exaggerating or kidding. It's hard to picture, but it's true.
I'm not sure if that has sent ME over the top by trying to keep my house so clean that I don't enjoy precious time with my kids. I almost feel like it's crippling me. I'm sure other moms might struggle with this, but I feel as if I might be the only one. I've been praying and asking God to help show me a happy medium. I'd like to be able to enjoy life, and do what I enjoy in some free time while Isaias is at school and Lily is napping. I've been stuck in "Mommy mode" for a while and have come to lose focus on what I really enjoy doing.
In the meantime, I'm asking for your prayers, because as small as it seems, it has begun to take over my life.
If the devil can't make you bad, he'll make you busy.
